My greatest fear is that I will look back on my life one day and realize that I didn’t walk in the fullness of what God had for my life. It would devastate me to think that I didn’t do my best for the person I love the most. Not because He demands it, but simply because I love Him. It’s easy to settle and compromise and there is always a temptation to go there but compromise is cheap. It leads to half a reward and half a breakthrough, which is not our inheritance.
I am reminded that Jesus never took a short cut to fulfill the Father’s will even when He could have many times. The steady, unwavering love He had for the Father and for all mankind is what kept Him going until He demonstrated the greatest act of love by becoming the ultimate sacrifice. That type of love is unrelenting and fierce. It doesn’t falter in the face of mockery, accusation, or even death.
Unlike any other fear, the fear that drives me is rooted in love for the Lord. I remember Pastor Bill Johnson mentioning in a sermon once, “Only the fear of the Lord has us running toward God when every other fear has us running from him.” I told the Lord that I am “all in” for Him several years ago. I made this decision when I met the Holy Spirit. While the process and the journey has been challenging at times, it’s nothing compared to the peace, joy, freedom, and life I receive from the Lord. It’s always increasing. Every day, every week, every year. His love propels me toward the goal for His glory and for His will to be done on earth as it is in heaven. I write this in my weakness as a wife, a friend, and as a human being, but knowing full well that it’s His grace that sustains me day in and day out.
It has definitely been a narrow road to journey on, but there is no other road I would rather be on. I am forever grateful to my Savior, my friend, my Great Reward, for taking me out of destruction and placing my feet on solid ground. He alone gives me purpose and hope.