My Greatest Fear



My greatest fear is that I will look back on my life one day and realize that I didn’t walk in the fullness of what God had for my life. It would devastate me to think that I didn’t do my best for the person I love the most. Not because He demands it, but simply because I love Him. It’s easy to settle and compromise and there is always a temptation to go there but compromise is cheap. It leads to half a reward and half a breakthrough, which is not our inheritance.

I am reminded that Jesus never took a short cut to fulfill the Father’s will even when He could have many times. The steady, unwavering love He had for the Father and for all mankind is what kept Him going until He demonstrated the greatest act of love by becoming the ultimate sacrifice. That type of love is unrelenting and fierce. It doesn’t falter in the face of mockery, accusation, or even death.

Unlike any other fear, the fear that drives me is rooted in love for the Lord. I remember Pastor Bill Johnson mentioning in a sermon once, “Only the fear of the Lord has us running toward God when every other fear has us running from him.” I told the Lord that I am “all in” for Him several years ago. I made this decision when I met the Holy Spirit. While the process and the journey has been challenging at times, it’s nothing compared to the peace, joy, freedom, and life I receive from the Lord. It’s always increasing. Every day, every week, every year. His love propels me toward the goal for His glory and for His will to be done on earth as it is in heaven. I write this in my weakness as a wife, a friend, and as a human being, but knowing full well that it’s His grace that sustains me day in and day out.

It has definitely been a narrow road to journey on, but there is no other road I would rather be on. I am forever grateful to my Savior, my friend, my Great Reward, for taking me out of destruction and placing my feet on solid ground. He alone gives me purpose and hope.

Victory in Battle


In a vision, I was equipped with a sword, and in front of me was an enormous snake. This snake was as huge as the one in Aladdin when Jafar turns into a snake and keeps growing to keep Jasmine hostage. I was dodging this snake as it tried to bite me from both sides. I kept my sword pointed and tried to take a few jabs at it. I knew I would be done for if the snake sank its teeth and powerful jaws into me since I was so small compared to the snake. The snake then coiled its head back and breathed a stream of fire towards my direction. I lifted my shield, and it completely protected me from the fire. Just as I was getting weary from the fight, I saw Father God behind me. He was so big I could only see His toe! As I kept gazing on Him with wonder and astonishment, I started to grow! I grew and grew and grew until the snake looked like the size of a silk worm. I then watched my Father crush the snake with the heel of His foot and I copied His exact movements.

I believe there is a mighty battle going on right now with this spirit. This spirit brings offense, bitterness, and suffocation through slander, judgement, and curses. It twists and turns the truth like an anaconda killing its prey. Just like in the vision, if we allow the effects of offense and bitterness anchor its nasty fangs into our hearts, it would be devastating. We are called to give grace just as we’ve received much grace from the Lord.

If you’re in a situation where you feel misjudged or wrongly accused, continue to gaze on the Lord. As we submit our hearts to Him for open evaluation and correction, and stay in that place of humility, the Lord will defend us in the battle. He will teach us how to take authority over our real enemy, the spirit behind the injustice. Let’s continue blessing those who mistreat us or curse us and pray that the Lord covers our hearts to protect it from any bitterness or offense. We will experience great VICTORY when we humble ourselves before the Lord. The result of humility brings about many amazing fruit, but one of them is growing in authority. The Lord lifts the humble and lowers the proud. “The one who sows in righteousness reaps a sure reward” (Provers 11:18). Like Jesus, we need to do nothing by ourselves and do only what we see the Father is doing (John 5:19). He is a good Father and always “has our back”.

Divine Acceleration


I see Jesus taking different colored boxes and aligning them one by one in a row. I knew the boxes were colored differently because each one had a unique surprise in them.

While some may feel like they are engaged in a mighty battle, amazing and divine alignments are happening behind the scenes that are going to blow us out of the water! I feel like the divine alignment taking place will open timely doors of favor to opportunities and key relationships.

I also saw a white clock with the hour hand and minute hand moving forward unnaturally fast. It made a few laps around the clock as if time was being fast forwarded. The Lord has begun the acceleration process in our lives! I feel like this season of acceleration will bring SUDDEN breakthrough in redeeming, restoring, and healing many lost and destroyed areas the locusts have eaten from our past. Although the enemy tried to burn and destroy our fields, the Lord is repaying us for what we lost and even using the burnt soil as fertilizer for our next season of blooming and flourishing!

As we make room in our hearts for the Father, a new Holy Fire will burn within us! We have entered into the season of promise and abundance! While the Father is always true to His promises, I invite you to press in with all you’ve got in this season. I recently heard this quote that has been reverberating within my spirit since. “While God will always keep His promises, He is not responsible in keeping our potential.” Let’s continue to seek His face in the secret place where deep intimacy, alignment, and transformation happens through the encounter with our loving Father.

Covenant Friendships


True transformation happens when we have an encounter with Jesus Christ and accept Him as our Lord and Savior. Our old self dies and we are re-born of the Holy Spirit. We are a new creation!

There may be some people from your past who may not understand your transformation and they may even go as far as to spread gossip and accusations about you. Know that this is first and foremost a spiritual battle and our true enemy is a spiritual one. The enemy tries to remind you of your old life in hopes that you’ll fall back into the shackles of shame and condemnation, but I say to you that that “you” has been long dead if you are in Christ Jesus! You are a new creation and you are completely free in Him! The price has been paid for every situation, stronghold, and sin –  past or future. We are victorious in Christ and we fight from victory, not for it!

The very reason why Jesus, who is perfect and sinless, couldn’t do mighty miracles in His hometown of Nazareth was for that reason, unbelief. Even when He laid His hands on the sick and healed them, they did not believe. Blinded by their unbelief, they passed judgment on Him from what they saw through their natural eyes instead of discerning through the eyes of their hearts. They missed out on knowing and supporting the greatest person who ever walked the earth.

Your character will always outlive any temporary accusation or gossip spoken over you. Bless those who curse you. There is a blessing waiting for you on the other side. The Lord has covenant friendships and even a tribe for you to run this marathon with! In this tribe, there will be no jealousy, hostility, judgment, or accusation. There will be honor and agape love. There will be mutual recognition of the anointing and mantles assigned to each person. There will be encouragement and support for one another to fulfill the God given mandates on their lives! An example of this is Jonathan. He was the natural heir to the throne of Israel but he had eyes to recognize the God given anointing that rested upon David’s life to be king of Israel. Jonathan made a covenant with David and vowed his support to help David live out his mandate from the Lord. Covenant friendships operate from this kind of love and sacrifice.

I bless you to know how special you are in Christ! If you haven’t met covenant friends or a covenant tribe, I pray that the Lord will orchestrate those divine relationships in His timing for your life. I bless you with peace, joy, and confidence in who you are in Jesus Christ!


“Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult. On the contrary, repay evil with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.” – 1 Peter 3:9

“There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death.” – Romans 8:1-2

“He went away from there and came to his hometown, and his disciples followed him. And on the Sabbath he began to teach in the synagogue, and many who heard him were astonished, saying, “Where did this man get these things? What is the wisdom given to him? How are such mighty works done by his hands?  Is not this the carpenter, the son of Mary and brother of James and Joses and Judas and Simon? And are not his sisters here with us?” And they took offense at him. And Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honor, except in his hometown and among his relatives and in his own household.” And he could do no mighty work there, except that he laid his hands on a few sick people and healed them. And he marveled because of their unbelief.

And he went about among the villages teaching.” – Mark 6: 1-6

Anointed For Glory


I saw a vision of a man lying face down in the presence of Jesus. The man’s posture said it all – complete trust, complete surrender, and complete humility before the Lord. In that place of surrender and intimacy, I saw Jesus holding a golden vase in His hand. He poured the entire vase of oil over the man, anointing Him.

In the Word it says that the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flows from the throne of God and of the Lamb through the middle of the street of the city; also, on either side of the river, the tree of life with its twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit each month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations.  (Revelations 22:1-2).

When we are anointed by the Father, the river of the Father’s love and power flows through us to a person or even a nation. We are made to be powerful conduits of His love! This is the same river of life that flows from the throne of the Father directly into the vessel of our hearts! As pure vessels of His anointing, we must understand that we are not anointed for personal gain but anointed to host an encounter with the True and Living God. The world is desperate for real encounters with Jesus. He’s the only one able to lead the lost and suffering to salvation, deliverance, and lasting transformation!

The evidence of the Father’s anointing in our lives is shown through the presence of joy, peace, and intimacy with Him. Like the man in the vision, we must be laid low in His presence with a humble and pure heart. As we continue to face our deepest pains and fears with courage and trust in Jesus, we gain authority, wisdom, and faith to aid those who may be suffering in similar ways.

It’s freeing on so many levels to know that it is Jesus, the Anointed One, in us and through us, who partners with us to bring the Kingdom wherever we go. He is our great reward. He is our promise. To Him be the glory forever and ever.


The Father’s Heart


As I was spending time with the Father, He asked me to share His heart for you! I hope you feel loved and greatly blessed by what He has to say. I am praying for the revelation of this Truth to sink deep into your heart and solidify into the bedrock of your foundation in Him. Bless you!

The Father loves you very much. You move His heart deeply and uniquely. No one else can move His heart like you do. He only has amazing thoughts about you! The very thought about you makes His heart leap and burst into song over your life! You put Him in the best mood, every day. He is proud of you and He never hesitates to show you off. He waits patiently for you to step into deeper intimacy and He will never stop waiting. You are worth it. When you enter into His throne room, He runs to you with open arms! You can rest in Him knowing that His purpose for your life is grander than your wildest dreams. Your hope in Him is safe. He is a good Father with good and perfect gifts for you.

Thank you for hoping in Him when all seemed dark and bleak. In this next season, the Father is going to restore you, redeem you, and revive you with a fire you have never known before! Wait for Him with enduring faith because all the chains that held you down in your past are about to be blown off of you in Jesus name! A whole new level of freedom and increase is about to burst forth in and through your life!

“You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”  – Psalm 16:11



Everything that can be shaken will be shaken but what remains will be unshakable. (Hebrews 12:27)

Some of us are in a season where the Father is orchestrating a divine shaking. He is going after everything that has exalted itself above Him in our lives, whether that is our greatest fear, a stronghold that has kept us from experiencing the fullness of His love, a lie that has kept us from knowing who we are in Christ, or an idol sitting on the throne of our hearts.

I feel the fire of testing and pruning through trials in my own personal life. I feel as though I am engaged in the greatest battle I have ever faced so far in my life. If you feel like you’re in a similar season, know that we will come out of the fiery trials victorious and forever changed! We will soar higher than we could have ever flown with our own might and cover distance farther than our wildest dreams. I believe this is a critical season to press into His presence, even if our feelings and thoughts say otherwise. We are being divinely set-up for breakthrough and aligned for His greater purposes for our lives. Praise the Lord for victory in the small battles because the war is about to be won!

The Importance of Vision


Our hearts become void of hope and get robbed of courage when we lose vision. We lose vision when we see ourselves or our circumstances through distorted lenses. To help us see rightly, the Lord put eternity into our hearts and promised to make everything beautiful in its own time (Ecclesiastes 3:11). Out of all of creation the Lord could have chosen to place eternity, He chose to place it in the hearts of His sons and daughters. DO YOU EVER FEEL DESTINED FOR GREATNESS? It’s because you ARE destined for greatness. Maybe you have dreams in your heart that spring up once in a while. I believe this glimpse of clarity is the Father allowing us to peer through the curtains of time to see who we are in Him and what we will do for His Kingdom in our lifetime. Don’t get me wrong. His love for us always remains constant and overflowing. Even if we never do a single thing for Him in our lives, the degree to which He loves us wouldn’t change because His love is unconditional. But when He allows us to peer through the curtains of eternity, we gain strength and vision. We know the goal and purpose of our adversity, pain, trials, and seasons of pruning. The fruit we bear in our lives and the advancement we make for His Kingdom are worth it all. Our assignments may differ but we all carry Christ in us, the hope of glory (Colossians 1:27). It’s not a matter of IF we will receive His promises over our lives, it’s simply a matter of when. He is true to His word. Let’s remember to see clearly in the midst of the storm and have joy knowing that the testing of our faith through the storm produces endurance and when our endurance is fully developed, we will be perfect and complete, lacking nothing (James 1:2-4).


Conquering Fear with Courage


Journeying through this life with God is definitely an incredible adventure. From my personal experience, I can absolutely testify that He takes me from glory to glory but usually that new level of glory doesn’t come without courage. Looking back at my personal growth with the Lord, I see how far he’s brought me out from the pit of destruction all the way to placing my feet on solid ground. I can rest assured in knowing that the Holy Spirit is even more committed to my sanctification than I am. The only challenge with the process is that we are only sanctified to the degree we surrender and say “yes” to the Lord in facing our fears and sins. This requires incredible courage.

As I mature in the Lord, I find that there’s always deeper healing and more freedom to be had. Fears I thought I had dealt with are exposed as the Lord very gently yet very deliberately brings them to the light. For example, I had a very chaotic and tumultuous upbringing. Ever since I can remember, I was driven by fear. If I was given a responsibility, I carried it out in the fear of thinking that if I failed to carry it out, I’d get severely punished. Because I had lived with this fear almost my entire life, I had come to be very comfortable with the feeling of fear and anxiety. I was almost deceived to the point that it was normal and that without it I’d even be unproductive. I’d give excuses saying that I loved working under pressure. But as I grew in the Lord and started experiencing longer and longer spurts of freedom, I learned to discern these feelings of stress, fear, and anxiety and rightfully began to HATE them. Once you get a taste of freedom, there’s no turning back. I am entirely committed to facing all of my fears so that I can go back to my originally-designed state of freedom. One fear I still struggle with is the fear of man. Many people think i’m bold and that these fears no longer have any effect on me, but that is far from the truth. Although I desperately try to anchor myself in my true identity in Christ, I continue to realize new remnants of my troublesome past. At times, it can manifest in an unhealthy desire to please others or even in feeling that i have no voice. It is then that the Lord reminds me that we are not meant to act from a place of anxiety or fear. We are meant to act from a place of peace and rest! Our inheritance is unlimited joy, freedom, and every good gift from our Heavenly Father!

Kris Vallotton very wisely says, “Courage does not mean you don’t have feelings of fear. We all can have feelings of fear. Courage is rather not making decisions based on those feelings but based on the truth of God regardless of how you feel.” Courage is something that God places in our hearts. Without God and community, it is impossible to do anything we are remotely scared of. When we are in fellowship with Christ, He strengthens us and encourages us to keep pressing in because there will be breakthrough! Just the same, when we are in fellowship with each other, we encourage or inject courage into each other so that we can keep pressing in on our journey no matter how hard the enemy fights us or how much he tries to DIScourage us. He is out to search, kill, and destroy everything that is made in the likeness of God. He knows that God’s children are made in His image and inherit everything He has. The enemy also knows that the time of his reign on earth is limited so he tries to steal our courage in everything we do. Unfortunately, he has succeeded in discouraging many good Christians away from their godly callings and divine paths. But if there is one thing I know, it is that God is infinitely greater and stronger than absolutely anything Satan or any of his minions can throw at us! As long as we have breath, there will be grace and redemption. That is the God we believe in. He is so beautiful and easy to love because He always works for the good of those who love Him.

As we continue on this journey, let’s remember who our real enemy is. If we are to have success as the body of Christ, we must not get caught up in jealously, comparison, lust, or pride. Rather, we must love and encourage one another in unity. This will allow us to flourish as individuals and as a corporate body of Christ. We will be able to bring the best versions of ourselves for His Kingdom and for His glory.

Strength In Numbers


Many people believe that abolishing human trafficking in our generation is impossible. But what if one person can make a significant impact for lasting change? It certainly takes faith. It definitely takes courage. But most importantly, it takes risk. Risk takes you to the edge of the cliff and faith gives you the ability to jump off, knowing that you won’t fall into impending death but instead, fly.

One of the greatest challenges in fighting human trafficking is the challenge of awakening America (or truthfully the world) to this devastating reality. It happens in everyone’s backyard whether you realize it or not. There are local task forces mobilizing and fighting against this grave problem because it is happening in every city. There are great politicians and lawmakers fighting for justice to prosecute pimps and johns. There are effective organizations supporting victims via rescues, safehouses, and transitional homes while bringing greater awareness to the public. We even have noble members of the corporate sector committing to ethical business practices. But before we celebrate too early, there are even more corporations, politicians, and people in general who turn a blind eye to the tragic truth that modern day slavery is more prevalent than ever before.

Why is it such a problem? It’s multi-layered, really. The media’s increasing glorification of sex has bred a generation of desensitized Americans who now create a significant portion of the worldwide demand for human trafficking. Pornography, itself, access to pornography, and the age at which children are first exposed to pornography have all changed drastically since the advent of the internet. The days of seemingly harmless Playboy-like images are long gone and have been replaced by obscene and dehumanizing videos of brutally mistreated (and often under-aged) people engaging in sexual acts. These videos show women, children, and even men, being treated like objects only meant to fulfill one’s sexual desires. They are even portrayed as seeming to enjoy the mistreatment. Children have access to this pornography, literally at their fingertips, at an average age of 12 years old on smartphones, laptops, gaming consoles, etc. They are being conditioned from a very impressionable age, when their minds are developing and bodies are changing, that it is okay to treat a girl/boy like a sexual object. Their minds get infiltrated with distorted fantasies and lust. The porn industry is so disgustingly conniving, knowing that free porn that satisfies today will not satisfy tomorrow. Many people who fall into deep porn addiction seem to develop a tolerance to it, much like a drug addiction. The tolerance effect causes these people to seek stronger and rougher porn to get the same satisfaction. So why is this a problem? People who buy trafficked women, men, and/or children aren’t born overnight. They’ve made very conscious decisions of flirting with fantasy and lust in their minds and hearts that eventually give birth to full blown sin. It starts with small choices. In order to combat human trafficking, we need to get to the root of the issue, which is a heart issue.

Why do people turn a blind eye to this problem? Many people think that human trafficking does not happen in their backyards. They feel very removed from the problem and believe that someone else will take care of it. These people underestimate the power of their own lives. They don’t know that their own voice can speak for the voiceless. These victims are more than a statistic. They truly are someone’s daughter, son, friend, or neighbor. Just last year, a trafficking ring was busted in Irvine, CA (ranked as FBI’s safest city in the country 10 years in a row) in a high-end apartment complex I used to live in a few years back. I had no idea this was going on while I was living there. The fact that the apartment complex was a beautiful gated community made it even more unsuspecting. The madam running the trafficking ring was targeting foreign exchange students with student visas. That ensured her clients a fresh supply of girls every few months as their visas expired and new students were trafficked in. An important fact to note is that people who are trafficked are NOT trafficked by their own will. There is a tremendous amount of brutality, violence, mind control, abuse, trauma, and drugs (to exert control) at play. Does this narrative sound familiar? It certainly happened before in history with the African American slaves. Plantation owners and overseers would exert power, unfathomable abuse, trauma, rape, etc. because they believed slaves were their property. We need to stop dehumanizing people.

How can we make a difference? There are many talents and gifts we have that can contribute to the fight. Do you have time? Money? Special skills (graphic design, IT, finance, teaching, ANYTHING) that can contribute to awareness, prevention, intervention? Love has a cost. God so loved… So He gave. We need to give. We also need to start talking in our churches. Whether the topic is about pornography or some other sin, we should foster a safe platform to share and cover those with the courage to do so. Churches have the incredible ability to mobilize and equip their people to take a stand and make a difference. There should be absolutely no shame or judgment on anyone who seeks help or confesses any sin. It is the Lord’s kindness that leads to repentance.

Let me end with a story:

The Starfish Story:

While walking down the beach, a man saw someone in the distance leaning down, picking something up and throwing it in the ocean.

As he came closer, he saw thousands of starfish the tide had thrown onto the beach. Unable to return to the ocean during the low tide, the starfish were dying. He observed a young boy picking up the starfish one by one and throwing them back into the ocean.

After watching the seemingly futile effort, the observer said, “There must be thousands of starfish on this beach. It would be impossible for you to save them all. There are simply too many. You can’t save enough to make a difference.”

The young boy smiled with a starfish in hand and tossed it back into the ocean.

“I made a difference with that one.” he replied.

– Anonymous

As many of you know, I have a passion to see modern day slavery end in our generation. To help fight human trafficking, please consider donating (whether it is your time, talents, or finances) to the organization, 27Million is an umbrella organization that networks grassroots movements already fighting on the frontlines on a global level. They raise funds to bless these organizations with their catalytic projects (because unfortunately money and resources are the issue in many cases) and overhead. They provide a platform for these organizations to come together, mutually encourage, pray for, and aid in the fight against human trafficking. There is strength in numbers. Together we can end modern day slavery.